Thursday, November 22, 2018

[Dominican Republic]: Part 2

I'm now sitting in United Airlines flight. I was upgraded after two India trips. And thanks to that I made it on today's flight even after reaching the airport so late. Nana kept saying but I didn't heed. Took my own time to shop, had tamarind juice and when I reached the UA counter they had closed it. Then I went inside those rooms behind the ticket counters and requested the lady and had to rush rush. Even if I hadn't rushed after security I would've been OK but still... When I cut line requesting, one man said why did you come late. Traffic I half lied. I should've said yes, it was stupid of me to arrive late.

I didn't sleep very well last night. Stayed at that island life hostel. It's nice but something too clean and well laid out, very american/european. For backpackers. It's OK sometimes. I was the only one to pin their map from Hyderabad. It was nice to speak to Mummy and Nana from there and also do my marketing weekly call (I was sitting at the bar like counter trying to get a good wifi signal that morning). Meaning it's easier to do everything remotely. AT&T even calls via wifi. 

Back to DR. I went to the Museum of Revolution. It gives a good perspective. In 1930s onwards there was thus dictator called Rafael Trujillo. Ruthless. Transferred all contracts to his businesses. Killed 1,000-30,000 non white people in the name of gentrification. Craziness of our world. If it's only for this reason I hope everyone gets a DNA test done to know where actually they are from. Then there was a revolution (Lelu even posed with two fingers viva revolucion he said). There was one odd exhibit of the revolution leader. It moves and his speech in background. People singing after.

My head is aching with that sunstroke type thing. (It went away with 1 glass orange juice and 4 glasses of water).

I stayed in Zona Colonial a historic district that's also very touristy in a somewhat good way. They are doing a good job with security and how they maintain the ruins. Christopher Colombus first arrived here. His statues are there. America's first church, first hospital it is all here. A lot has happened in the last 400 years. I mean a rapid, rapid change in our world.

When you actually be with the people, eat their food, breath the air, you somehow remember. I mean our body, our mind knows. We are all so interrelated. We fight because we've forgotten. We think they are different. We think we are different. We hardly are.

Even as we advance with our modernity culturally every place has gotten similar. Uber. Fast food. Mobile phones. Music. Work. Families. Like 80% similar and then some. Then we all have our local stuff like bachata or merengue music in dominican. And then we think my culture, my culture is so great etc. Then we find other people and cultures exotic. Like Miguel the driver of the shared taxi he got so excited to know I'm from India. He did the flowers in hair action and said muy buen for Indian women. Like they do with the fingers. I repeated it in the Uber to the airport with shoot I forget his name Vladimir yes...Vladamir showed me the blue water - it's after the toll area. So blue he kept saying. It was. Muy buen. Very good. He used his finger closing kissing action :)

The hospital I walked in the ruins. There were birds sitting in the ceiling. Something about it. Who would've thought then that hospitals in America would be a thing. 

I walked a lot. Let's see. 2km today. 11.8km yday. 8.1km day before. 11.5km first day. It was nice and sunny. My sun ka headache is gone now. People say it's not safe etc. I didn't exactly find it so. Well it's like any other city. Like NY or Joburg. There are safe areas. There are unsafe areas. 

We need the cities. They are the lifeblood of countries. Connecting one country to the other. They help us pool our resources and build airports for others to come and visit. They make it easy for us by having things we are used to like credit cards and Uber. And they breed problems too from crime to drugs. Late night one drunk called out to me senor senor I ignored. But I walked even in the not lit areas. I liked.

People play dominoes all the time. Like big people mostly. Blaring music. Dominoes. In the rural side, they are simply sitting and watching life go by. I guess that's how it is in India too and elsewhere. Just sitting peacefully. Not rushed. Not feeling that they are missing out on things. Coconut trees (that boy who resembled Jeetu in the shared taxi - he kept trying to make me understand about some coconut and farm). Hot sun. Pollo shops everywhere. I saw one guy cut up Pollo (chicken) with big cutting pliers with a yellow handle. It was odd to see an freshly dead being, inverted, roasted cut up that way with big pliers. 

I ate Haitian food last night at a place called Maison Kreole. Everyone wants you to have a good time with their culture. Had Prestige beer which was stronger than Presidente which I liked. Had how many 6 half bottles this week. It's so hot it just disappears. Anyway my workout has gone for a toss.

I liked going back to that Columbus square. The statue it's weird. Like Columbus is standing tall. And a barely clad young women is trying to climb up to him. Really tells women men attitudes back then.

I got by with Google Translate. But the thing is if they don't know how to write its pointless. I didn't have internet. They spoke too fast. I just said whatever I'd want say. Not understand most of what they said. They didn't understand most of what I said. But yet we connected. Some of us. It was easy to know. Talking, talking and language is a bit overrated. It may be causes more disturbance than helping. We don't have to do anything. We just sometimes simply connect.

Before going to Samana, I took a motorcycle taxi. Surprisingly he was from Serbia. His name was Dalibor. Looked in his late 30s. Very thin. Red t-shirt. I think he said his family or 6 yr old son is in Serbia. His friend from Bosnia came to work as a chef and asked him to come over. But he didn't want to work in the restaurant but he liked the motorcycle taxi life. Everyone has a story. He has a Haitian wife here. I asked him if he'd show me the city. So he did. Took me all around. Rich areas first. Where he said some apartments cost $2m (or did he mean 2m pesos). And government areas. President's house muchas grande (it's a huge palace like structure). He showed me the hotel where Godfather movie was shot. There he used his fingers curling kissing action too. We ate at a Dominican smart casual place. In the end he asked for two thousand (double what I expected). I gave him anyways. Both he and I knew it was more. But he needed the money more. We hugged and he kept indicating his fist to his heart when we left.

I was just there for 3 nights. But it means a whole lot.

Dominican = happy.

[Dominican Republic]: Part 1

I'm sitting in an ac bus. Caribe tours. the driver crosses speed limit every now and then and it goes keee keee sound. I'm typing on the phone.

Can't believe that I came to DR only day before. Let me back up. I had no idea I'd be here. At all.

Before the bus, I was with Lelu and Hans from Germany and Andreas on a boat to two playas - Fronton and Madama. Lelu is born and brought up in Las Galeras where I was. Lelu has got lots of curly hair and athletic and has two ninos. Lelu taught me swimming. We went snorkeling. What beautiful white sand. It's always a wonder to go under water. White transparent fish. Colorful fish. They seem to have a smile like a drawing on their face. It was funny. Like someone actually drew a smiling fish with a color pencil. I just saw they are on the northeastern tip of the country  Crazy is that where I was? Grigeri who rented me a room was surprised. She was sitting in a bra (it's very hot and humid) and sipping something with another friend. Grigeri is very dark and must be in her 70s. She made nice coffee in the morning.

It was Daniel (beard no mustache) who called out to me... I had done kriya on the beach and was playing the fool before. Taking pics. Climbing coconut tree. I slept very very well after so many days. More than 8-9hrs. Sound restful sleep after a long time. Thanks g. 

Yday night I walked around Las Galeras Pueblo. Nice. I walked into a church gathering. It was nice to see the locals do their thing. Religion unifies. When you you feel nothing is in your control it's a relief to believe that there is a God who is in control. And you can pray and someone will take care of your things for you. Contrary it'll feel very heavy to think that you yourself are responsible for everything. There was a small little girl walking all over. Her mother kept running after her. The mother seemed in her teens. A dark man with mustache and tie was speaking or preaching. There was music. A speaker that was croaking. One lady said hi to me acknowledging my visit. I swayed with them while they were dancing.

I'm in the town.. Lots of young people. They work as taxi on motorcycle. They race. Do wheelies. Even carry Presidente beer while driving. It's generally a nice quiet town. I ate the most amazing vegetarian paella last night. The chef was European (unkempt beard). Morning I ate at a French place. Very nice smiling lady. Salt was little more in the omelette. They all are amused with my face or rather find it different...many have never seen an Indian...they circle their finger around their face, smile, say Indio and indicate something that means nice. I could pass off as Mexican (that's what the man on the beach thought - another guy circled his finger near his head saying the man was mad). Until I open my mouth. My softer hair is also an amusement. Theirs is very textured and course which is also very nice. That gives the natural curls. Unlike the Spanish, here I am their color but different hair.

I met one Italian lady - again friendly - in the shared taxi. She works as a nanny to Europeans who moved here. I met two kids who tried hard to make me understand about some coconuts and farm and if I drank it etc. I like the shared taxis. People get in. Get off. The Italian said she loves it here because people smile. They sip Presidente. They are happy.

Hans told me of a mechanic who made 4,000 euros in Switzerland but returned home because life is better here. 

At Grigeri's place I met a French lady and her Dominican boyfriend (who wore cool glasses) while having coffee. She said TB was high and HIV was very high. She conducts health education programs. 

Haan..how did I go to Las Galeras? One taxi guy in Samana offered to take me here for 45 dollars but I declined. But I thought of going to the place. Then I asked a motorcycle taxi guy to take me. I couldn't understand a word of what he said. But he showed me a shared taxi that was going in that direction. "Las Galeras" "Las Galeras" Nodding. Nodding. I went. What a wonderful ride. Breeze. I was sitting on top at the back of the vehicle. It was beautiful to first see the Caribe sea from that side. I actually didn't know where exactly we were going. Then I thought how does it matter? Whether it's Las Galeras (I didn't even know the town existed a half hour ago) or whatever village or town. I'll get off where it stops finally. 

How did I go to Samana? The yellow t-shirt ticket lady (who looks a bit like chaitnya) at the caribe tours suggested. So I went. The Uber driver had said Constanta mountains. But that bus was leaving only at 5p and four hour ride. So I chose this. 2.30p and 2.5hour ride. "Beautiful place Samana," she said. I met a retired military General while waiting for the bus (behind his hat it said gral. cuevas). He was also visiting and seeing Samana. He said Samana beautiful like how the locals do by bringing all their fingers together and pursing their lips and almost offering a kiss with the fingers. Beautiful. It was. It reminded me of the day with pd in Thailand koi Yao noi. So many years ago now. Time keeps on cruising. 

And why did I go to Dominican Republic? I've always found them friendly and attractive. Like a vibe and energy. Happy. The other day last week... two days before I traveled I went to kayak and put Newark to Anywhere and put duration and price restrictions. Dominican seemed doable. I deliberated for a bit. I called the embassy and they said I didn't need visa if I had US visa (I liked the interaction). And the Uber driver who dropped me from that fellows meeting Lilunette was from Dominican. So I thot it was like a sign. I booked before I could change my mind. It's right next to Haiti and there are several island countries. 

Why did I go anywhere at all? I wasn't even supposed to be here in the US. Sm couldn't travel to ny. I decided on a saturday morning that I'll travel that night. And I was there the next monday for the mtg. had a busy week. and one particular meeting on thursday I think had a wtf moment. It snowed that day. My cell ph went out of charge. My hands froze. I finally reached a dunkin donuts and the lady helped me charge. then I called uber and went home. At some point that day I knew I had to get out.

So...so many things are inter-linked, interlinked. whom do I thank for DR?

I would've liked to swim properly (Lelu kept saying tranquilo, relax, tranquilo, relax). Saw one guy who was deep in the water. Lelu said don't go so far. He said America, America. Don't know what he meant. We meet so many people we never meet again. And yet we are all so connected. 

I'll write later now about Santa Domingo. 

Sunday, September 9, 2018

[Tibet]: Final words...

hmmmm...it was an interesting trip...I feel really sorry for Tibet...it's a loss...a deep loss...the culture, the people seemed confused...i don't know this thing about religion...why the desperation....each to his own yes...but still...i couldn't feel that thing inside...i tried yes...the human condition is about wanting to be understood...to feel free...to be accepted without judgment...to feel light within...we all want that thing we know within...sometimes it happens, sometimes not...it was a coming back this journey...a lapse with much in between...life turned...many shifts...but to not be seen for the present...of a rolling past, of an unknown future...years roll...i think about the body...it's a blessing...it's changed...stronger...got that summits book...the journeys...scomfortable...a surrounding peace...but how can you have cities within a mountain...but that's what we'll make it in the name of development...all the solar panels...it's fine...the phone connectivity...it's fine...the new buildings, the roads it's fine...the jobs it's fine...but it all comes at a deep, deep loss that you can't put your finger on...what is it that we want? for what? and what do we do after we get that? and then what? what is it that we are losing? what is it that we are gaining? everything that happens touches at a very deep level and it takes a long time to allow it to leave you...but it never does...every experience adds...it connects...it mixes...it makes it something of its own...anyone's guess where it'll go from here...life...yes only at those times...the heart is not an  organ...but no one knows that...may be when we say heart we mean the soul...when we say mann we know not what we mean...and what about the soul of a region...of a people...of a time...of a mountain...does it matter? it'll be lost in the dusts of time...this region...these people...us...me...you...him...her...everything...like that moment in bhyrappa's parva...after the end of the battle...it's all lost anyways...the water washes everything over...i have nothing to say really...i feel sorry for the chinese too...what are you doing really? and what are you getting out of it? so what if they all become chinese? then what happens? what is chinese? even if you have a 200 year vision...so what? it's all a blink of time...to love truly, to be in love...to expand...and stay grounded at the same time...that's all there is to it...if you know then you know...that's that...

[Tibet]: The rest of the days...

The road to Saga was washed out. Meaning we couldn't get out of there. Apparently Times of India covered it...sz knew of it...s-hil told her...so we took a very long round-about...driving 2,000+km across tibet to reach the border with Nepal. Our Chinese driver was phenomenal...i really liked him...most efficient of the crew...he wore jeans, a maroon jacket and a t-shirt...hardly spoke a word...was smiling at the end of it all...with his cigarette...we were at an odd hotel behind the china-india canteen...oh well...

We were only driving...driving...driving...i took a dump behind a big pole advertising something...it was most relieving! :) the journeys mattered...human...clouds...vast skies...wonder...back in time differently...fun...time flew...and i knew it would...

The last night and second-half day was very difficult...may be most challenging. felt empty. long traffic jam on a mountain. mind is a funny thing. how to be present...when present is burning into past...there was distress...this-that...we got lost...finally reaching kathmandu...landslides...the next morning was farmer's market near the president's house...then afterwards tamr took us to dwarka hotel...very interesting architecture...i struggled to stay put...but time passes by as it does...everyone said bye...i packed the water...they said i left the water bottle cover, food, glasses inside...of course i did...gave to that man who gave tape...stared at space which seemed nice for awhile...shopping before that which was fine...and left nepal.


[Tibet]: Day 9, 10, 11, 12 - Kailash

We left everything in Darchen. Our bags were small...3 or 4 packed into one duffel provided by the operators. I don't have any notes...only memories.

It was a pleasant start...mostly with d. rivers were flowing through mountains...slow, gentle climb. our pace was steady...there was this old tibetan man (I'd say "tash-ta-de") with a walking stick...lines on his face...smiling...wide teeth...mustache...he could've been from peru or elsewhere...all the same...our faces are old...they connect...deeply...our lines are from our past...flowing into the present...

tibetan buddhists...doing the kora (parikrama)...by prostrating...someone said it takes them 13 days...but i didn't see people doing it all the way...some would get out of cars...she was wearing pink rubber slippers in her hands...while prostrating...it was interesting to see...bonn (pre-buddhist religion...nongchuk called it)...they were doing the kora anti-clockwise...even turning the wheel anti-clockwise...who's to know how to find god...your god...some greeted...om namah shivaya...some were on ponies...the tibetan horse-men and women looked fine...smiling...

there were breaks...methodical ones...i liked...disciplined it was...i liked...we ate lunch around 12.45? or was it after 1...perfect time...one bird came eating on our puris...we had alu-puri for packed lunch...it was very, very nice morning...time unfolded from a lost past...skies...they sent rain sometimes i think bcos i had my cover...my goretex...

hmmm...where did we stay? oh ya...it was a longish entrance to that place...shed...(kept saying the tour operator's name)...there was a first view of kailash...a couple of chinese women were taking pics across the bridge...we were in Diraphuk...Sadhguru was to arrive the next day...he stayed in an off-white tent...some waited, took pics...they had a satsang...Chinmayananda group had arti...mayr said, falacy of religion or something like that...i wondered why...everything is unto its own...allow things to be...you move through it...

Day 2
The next day...we were to trek up to the north-face of Kailash...while we all started together...d went from the other side...mm, tilk and i...then g...then others...on left...it went on...beautiful views of Kailash...very enjoyable...seemed so real upclose...i mean, it was real...i was sometimes chanting when alone...i don't know why...just wanted a medium to lose track of external environment and go within...i did...again and again...repetition reduces the noise outside...the things that attract senses...the alert mind slowly goes within...in that state...suddenly i found myself near d, mm, tilk...they were on or near a glacier...i don't have much memory of the time...d says i was on left (possibly she/they followed me but how did i move ahead...)...i wanted to go on ahead...and then suddenly we were slipping...going down, down on the ice (glacier covered by scree)...and below was a river...in an odd way, it was home ground...i was very connected with the earth...the surface...there was a big rock...i was holding onto it...but it would slip too...other rocks slipped...slowly we stood up...or held on...sticks...one after the other...g was below near the river (small stream)...he looked nervous when i asked him if he can hold onto sticks...and there was the bag...we took awhile...may be 20min...the others had caught up...they waited...mm and tilk were on the other side...mm making a swimming type action (apparently he meant it's all flat on top...i read it as swim or use your hands?!)...they went away...finally we turned back...then back further...taking pics...this and that...it was nice those moments...some shared human experience...

Tilk and mm returned 5 hours later...we were quite worried...met and spoke to the tibetan head person...to send a sherpa up into the mountains to find them...i remember his eyes...they were big, bulging...something one would say blood-shot...without the blood...the sherpa selected was also a good guy...better than our operators...but we saw our guys up near the flag area (where prash had said, all flags move separately on their own but still do the same thing)...

tilk and mm returned...they were in a diff zone...touched the north face of Kailash...found stones, horses (which seemed like personal effects of people who left them there...prash picked two pieces and gave me...i want to return those pieces to the earth)...g cried...mm also something...reiki that night...and that vicks on the feet that tilk msged about...it was fine...

neerj and mm were to go back the next day...his goretex didn't work...but it also didn't rain after...

Day 3
It was the day of the Dolma La pass...5,600+m...Dr M said on the trek to salkantay...when I asked him about bp and such...bcos Dr. Hegde said don't go up etc. so Dr. M said...go back to the point you've been earlier and see how you feel...i guess that was the reason this was imp or wanted to go about this body thing methodically...crossfit helped clearly...lungs, heart were good...i'm so used to being under-estimated/doubted...mathlab whatever...you have to do your thing...steady...like the tree...being like the tree of however you are wanted...so it was good...this day...

it started in a hurried way...taking dump last minute...rushed...wanted to take that nice kailash pic bcos it opened itself...didn't like the rush...

there were 3 ladies we met along the way...in the pic she closed her eyes ufff...she told me take a sip of the water...i did...flags...buddhist flags on top...loooong cross over...the pass...Dolma La is written in English in its own Chinese way...there was this man...who coughed...when i gave him strepsils he said he had (need lots of strepsils generally)...he took our pic across Gowri Kund (they said don't go down there)...it was fine...green-blue water...the down you had to be used to it...how to go down mountains...then it's easier...

we spent 45min or so at that dhaba down...drinking hot water...there was this boy/man who managed the china-India canteens...he would do this pranaam...the tibetans managing the dhaba...very rough conduct...long, long walk to Zuthulphuk...

We got there...it was nice this shed place...where we stayed...pakodas and tea we got...no bathrooms...all in open...the next morning tilk accompanied me to take a dump...a first for me to look at someone (even in darkness with the head-light)...while taking a dump! anj and others returned very late (9pm or so)...there was something about them returning...i somehow wasn't inclined to go and engage...was letting people be...mayr returned saying hey we helped mamiji get down etc.

Day 4
It was a really short day. We started early morning. Playing that movie-quiz game...it was a nice, pleasant walk...then we talked about favourite foods...bhrti said she liked ribs...ribs...:) nothing from home...d of course said rasam :)

horses would come in the way...towards the end...there was this vast view...mountains in the distance...and solar panels...clouds...vast, vast clouds showing the distance...d said of depth re photos...our eco bus hadn't arrived...it allowed me to go up, take pics...there was this yak horns...it had hair...the black hair...it was something...meaning it was telling me here was a living creature...

[Tibet]: Day 8 - Rakshas Taal, Darchen

We started around 11.30am...(I've written this)...in the eco bus...first stop was at Rakshas Taal...from top...there mm showed me...there were 2 or 3 islands...he's been here 6-7 times...once in the winter...when he simply walked on rakshas taal...to go to the islands...he told me about sven hedin...the swedish explorer...the miracles that have happened with him in the region (mm)...sven hedin had written about a gompa near the rakshas taal area...mm found a tibetan...no language communication...just name of gompa...he took him there...then mm told me a story from the travels of swami pranavananda...he and a fellow traveller/swami were stuck on one of the islands during one of the winters...they survived by taking eggs from a bird (storks or sea gulls)...then they returned to plains...one of them died...mm thought if he could've done it then...why wouldn't he explore now...the region has a deep significance for him...it was nice to see things through his eyes and hear his stories...

we went down to rakshas taal...everyone went down to take pics...didn't took own...beach like area...stones interesting stones...then we continued onto to Darchen...I was busy drawing...it was one of the most enjoyable drawing rides...i was lost...deep into Chiu Gompa...i took a pic...then started drawing...they wanted to touch the book...i wouldn't allow...would show from far bcos people were curious...it was a splendid time...

Darchen suddenly was a city/town again...a chinese one...clean roads...odd structures...red/yellow flags...we reached a large hotel...that had multiple buildings...we were housed in building #3...thankfully no floors...all flat one floor...isha group were near us...they had their own tea and stuff...fruits too...i missed fruits :) the canteen was nice...(on return, i went to the kitchen bcos of hot idlis...wanted to get it...)...there was one boy working there that mayr talked about...from mumbai...he lost all muscle...something.

mm made a nice presentation...kailash felt surreal...from google satellite pics...felt daunting too...i worried...discussion after re wont trek with you bcos etc....called home...thik hai i thot...let life play its part...but it turned out well the next day onwards...in my lost mind, i forgot where i left riche's bag while moving to the main area...searched isha buses...something.

[Tibet]: Day 7 - Thubba Ri climb (Manasarovar)

Originally, we were to go on an afternoon climb...but some of us were quite energetic in the morning after bfast...and decided to go up the Thubba Ri...right behind Manasarovar.

That morning, I went to the lake...actually both mornings I did kriya there...I'd take a dump (the bathrooms were clean...men on left, women on right (first time that gaddam man said, jaayiye)...for the second last bathroom, the door kept opening so I had to hold onto the latch which was a twine...by my mouth...what fun...i always used water!)...it was peaceful and nice. The second day...because of rain...I ran back...I didn't like that running back...bad idea with the altitude...because we were still acclimatizing...there was that black mountain dog that barked at me...and I asked him to be quiet and go away...I got many visions from the Lake...could easily connect and go back in time...

d and I started together...i remember saying it's nice to walk again...hiatus of 3 years or so...but it just changed quickly...d and tamr disappeared in half hour...different paths...i went through the right side...i kept looking for may be an hour or hour and a half...and then i thot chalo abhi just be...it was nice after...because it was simply me, my body, my being...the land, the lake...

(it's saturday...after returning...am having this white wine, home-made fries with mcd ka peri-peri powder...very tasty happy...body quickly loses capacity to wine...ahan's gone for akshat's bday party in st andrews...suz just back btw some saloon things...life moves all around...chhaaj vs chaas discussion :))

I don't know when I lost track of time and space...but it happened. I was unto my own. Kept seeing back to see Manasarovar in the distance...vast...spectacular...the sun shining brightly...i was in the red sherpa thing (only thing i had)...at one point tilk took pic...he and g were behind...didn't know them that much then...except g and i bunked together once...

there was a river flowing...from top...on its own here and there...winding...possibly joining Manasarovar from somewhere...outside or inside the earth...the earth loved me...holding me...grounded...around the time when I saw the green mycelium and white...something about it...i connected...letting out aka chords to the region...to the lake...and asked tell me about yourself...and the visions came...me in an ancient past...beyond shiva, beyond mythology, beyond sapiens...as a man, as a mother, as a daughter and son...connected deeply to the land...many creatures have roamed here...and me among them...the glaciers melted and settled as a lake...the water rejuvenating they said (12 rivers?)...but rakshas taal doesn't get the sources...so it's salty but manasarovar is not...is it sweet I don't know...I washed up in the evening...

Up there...i found an alter...a stone held up by the ground...i felt that was the point...i went around it, prayed to it even...enjoyed the moments, felt at peace...after that went up further...turned back after 3 hours...tilk and g wanted to go further...and they did...met others on the way back...mayr, king, rich etc.

there was one bird/insect...when you use your tongue to touch your palate and make a tthrrrr tthrrrr sound...that flying friend made that sound...i asked what are you telling me...said, be light, be light...but i realized i wasn't light later...may be i forgot the bird...it was a small bird...small little bird that flew fast...

Rakshas taal was on left...they said Ravana prayed or did tapasya there...and therefore no one dips...mm said the next day...in the winter, he walked on it...went to the islands...that it houses...it was a wonderful moment...on top when i saw rakshas taal from thubba ri, on top on the way further to darchen when mm showed (swami p...someone who along with someone was stuck in the winter...they ate eggs of that migratory bird to survive...then they did...when they returned...the other person died...something like that...sven hedin has written in his notes of a gompa...mm went with a tibetan he found randomly to find that gompa...he did...he kept talking of many miracles he's experienced in the region...)...haan back to rakshas taal...also when we reached the bottom...mm wanted to go near take pics...the group went...it was very hot, sand, sunny...we took pics too...it was super comfortable...

where am I? Dd told me about kahani and katha...kahani has a clear beginning and end...katha we don't know when you branch off...when you don't...katha...he says some interesting things...he's coming for dosa tomorrow...waiting...

Back from Thubba Ri climb (I set myself a clock...3 hours up and then return...i took 1 hr...45min down so did d...she returned after 3 too independently)...met riche and others on the way...on returning I saw the lame way the operators were...dorji non-existent...i lost it on the other boys...that they hardly know what it means to serve trekkers...to go elsewhere and learn...later I realized they knew what to do...they just didn't want to do it...anyway after the scolding...the others got some hot water...food etc.

i think it was that day...anj gave soup packets...dorji stamped on one unintentionally...we had soup...they showed some attention after...but i think there was another tiff...he said 120 degrees mein doonga when I asked for giving it hot...i snapped back...why do you talk like that...then i went to the kitchen tent...spent the time with them...explaining one more time...they stepped up but not so much...it's because the operators were problematic...the group became closer...a common problem...there's always a blessing...

it has to be that day...we went to the shops within the gompa...the kid (they said other kids did too)...the kid he had his pant open at the bum...so when he pooped...he'd be done, washed and shut...meaning the pant had an opening by the bum...his mom and dad owned one of the shop...mom she didn't wash her mouth had food sticking all around it...i wondered why...she made eggs that had water flowing out...I bought 2.5kg jerry can...king bought 3 hats...all transactions in yuan...d ate egg...(I'm eating chillies mixed with sev and onions now!)...

Saturday, September 8, 2018

[Tibet]: Day 7 or 8 - Trugo Gompa live notes

Days are indeed flying. I've lost track. I'm dull this morning. Sort of bored? Yday was very interesting. Morning I did kriya by the lake. Water lapping slowly...a dog (mountain dog) came before I started. I told it to go away and allow me to do. I ate well - porridge, apple, bread, granola, coffee. People talking, talking. The vastness of Manasarovar is surreal. She told me how everything melted and settled as a lake. A lot has happened since. Many creatures have roamed these lands. I was here before. A shooting star went by in the wee hours of the morning as I sat there - I asked for peace to accept me as I am and to just be. Amy had given me that peace circle...it's in the green bag. It rained as soon as I finished. First slowly, then fast fast. I couldn't find those black quick-dry undies. I also think I left that pyjama pants in that Chinese hotel in Saga.

There was a deeply spiritual experience...the green mushrooms, mycelium. Then there was those small white mushrooms...soft texture...brain-like. The mind keeps going here and there. All the time. We kid ourselves to find what we seek here and there. Our cave is inside. So many things keep happening here and there - all around...kabhi this...kabhi that. What's the point?

May be I'm sleepy. People kept getting up. Sleeping late. Snoring. Brahma time 3.30am. Slept in spurts...

Conversation with Nongchuk...

d has a very good intuitive sense...natural...almost after first day, she said this guy can't be trusted...it turned out that way...anyway...this was my conv with him...our tibetan guide.

Born in 1975. Parents and grandparents were farmers. He lived in Mysore for 10 years...said he studied...math, physics, chemistry...all the basic subjects. Chinese officials threaten his family (will harm them) if he communicates with people in India. His sister is in India...Dharamshala or northeast. They communicate by WeChat and he's always concerned about the photos she sends...in case there's some tibetan flag in the background. Has a 13 year old daughter...wants to tell her about Buddhism etc. but never talks to her about Dalai Lama...if by chance, she utters...then she'll be de-barred permanently from school and education.

Earlier the tibetans couldn't afford healthcare...now the Chinese govt...provides free insurance...maternity is covered. So they started having more children...it's always interesting to see the link between policy and social change. It's sometimes so practical. Imagine being that child...born...because your parents got insurance...

We talked about bride price. Some chinese can't afford - car, house etc. that they need to give in order to marry. So they get married to Tibetan girls. Otherwise the mixing is very limited. Tibetans don't feel comfortable around the Chinese. They seem very afraid and nervous around them. He said...the driver and he won't sit together to eat.

Something about Panchen Lama...was arrested when he was 6 years. I have to read...but something about a Lama who was forced to marry into Chinese...then they said they'd allow him to open or reopen monasteries...which he did. Some Tibetans regard him highly that he made that sacrifice.

So was interested in my conversation...stepped in. she seemed knowledgeable about the tibetan condition and talked about a few books. but I stepped out. she wrote and sent us this article later.

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Nongchuk kept smoking every now and then. They are blessed with good lungs. Mountain lungs that can climb easily. He wasn't clear...open. He was doing his chanting etc. in Saga...I noticed. It seemed fine then. When I went to talk to Dorji in the kitchen tent...he was sitting with whiskey bottle...that's fine...but it was at the cost of being alert to client needs...which never existed. He said bye etc. Prash and mm went to greet bye. I saw from a distance...at that border. Seeing that I'll never see him again. I often think of this nowadays...most people I see, I'll never see again. Was telling ahan too the other day on way to school...why daddy, he said.

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more random live notes...

When will I ? Silence. Wtf. People. heart. Gunshots. Kiang. What will they think? Conscious. Can you? Sausages. Swami. Climb. Whiskey. Nongchuk. Buddha. Angst. So much. Odd. Eyes open. Authentic. PS. Talking. Quiet. Rakshas Tal. Friend. Human. Neanderthal. Me. 

[Tibet]: Day 5-6-7 Manasarovar

Manasarovar is at 4,590m...high. It was spectacular every which way we saw it. It was a very long drive. 10+ hours. Nothing of course compared to what we'd have on the return. There was a delayed start from Saga...bfast poha upma thing...long discussion in the bus...re mm, then the dazed thing, patterns...i irritated (rather bored must be)...odd entry it was into Manasarovar...but a spectacular one.

It was late evening (possibly night) when we arrived at the visitor's center. A huge structure again. There was a basketball court outside. Some solar panels (these were everywhere). The visitor's center somewhat indicated a tourist spot...it shows what'll become of the place. It'll be a tourist destination. Large pics of birds inside the center. One vast map of the region...showing Darchen...Mt. Kailash (I liked the map)...we took pics in front of Manasarovar.

Then we waited for an ecofriendly bus - which wasn't all that eco friendly - meaning they filled the same gas etc. Anyways we shifted into it...and went along the perimeter of the Lake. It got darker...was difficult to drive. It looked like the Pacific ocean in some respects. Reminded me of that beautiful day with prad...we unexpectedly went there. There were ducks and such...swimming...just like that day...something peaceful unto itself...high up above the world. In some ways it was surreal to think that we were so high up...and yet it feels so normal or something.

The ride went on and on. Riche took pics of a Tibetan family...people make the place, she said. The sun never set. Almost. We got lost a bit too - crossed Trugo Gompa where we were to stay...then turned back. Some of us got to moving the bags...Dorji again was only too happy to allow...I'm thinking about it now. mm would be the first always to get moving. even there. he did it even at the road crossing place...almost seamlessly now that I think about it.

We stayed in Trugo Gompa (monastery)...in dorm-style accommodations. 5 to a room...two of the rooms were attached. Next day (late afternoon when we returned after acclimatization trek), a small bird was stuck inside the room...it was bright and sunny outside. then we opened the window...it went out...small bird.

It was nice...the dorm-style...tamr and I were head-to-head...dd and prash toe-to-toe next room ("he kicked, then instinctively I kicked")...thakurji other side spreading all his stuff...mayr near the window in his maroon cheddis...tilk across me...mm next room...g next room...kumr too. then all the women other room...

With fatigue...everyone simply slept. There was talk about Brahma muhurtam at 3am etc. to go to the lake...some went that night too...kumr, mayr, tilk went to smoke weed or something...they came back stoned...talking about such a big shooting star...and in the clouds they say shivji or something. stoned. :)

Friday, September 7, 2018

[Tibet]: Day 4 - random notes live

We are in a Chinese bus. Everyday washes the previous day away. Every moment too - sometimes. mm and I went to a monastery by chance. Pagma? An old Tibetan lady with many wrinkles sat there. Wonderful smile. He also peeped in to see where they were lighting the lamps...one dark room. China's morphed Tibet. Today is imp day for Padma Sambhava. A group gathered across Seth hotel in a tea-shop chanting for the wellbeing of the Dalai Lama.

It's funny how it looked...the border crossing. It's the same mountains. And we divide it We say this is you, this is us. Then we build a friendship bridge. Then we check phones for photos of the Dalai Lama. What if he's in your heart? What do you do then?

The security guards who checked us - after duty - they stayed in one large Communist era type building. At a certain time, blaring indoctrination music played. I've seen it in the movies. They wore green uniforms and mostly walked in a file. Then we all ate in that Chinese Sichuan restaurant. Mapo tofu...mayr kept saying. 

[Tibet]: Day 3 and Day 4 - Crossing over to Tibet...Kerung, Saga

We started late I recall from Shyafru Besi....(I'm in barista and I see that girl who nervously keeps biting off her nails and smokes and hurriedly uses the paying machine herself to pay...oh well...)...we got off at that last point prior to Friendship Bridge. We walked 2km or so to reach it. It was the first time everyone was walking...I recall walking with Bhrti...at the border, we waited for a really long time. Because the computers on the chinese side weren't working? (the connectivity wasn't).

I recall chatting with one of Nepalese army people...he showed me his pic with a lady who's climbed Everest multiple times. Some green color dress? She looked like anyone.

Friendship bridge...the nepalese and tibetans are very nervous of the chinese. The bridge...it's easy to see (based on what you see on the other side) on which friend is powerful...on the Tibetan side...a big huge structure...on Nepalese side...nothing...we sat waiting on the chinese/tibetan side. They checked our phones for dalai lama pics. mm's maps - he had to explain.

Later when they closed...we saw the chinese military kinda march into a communist-style building. big structure. there was indoctrination music playing...blaring. we sat in a chinese restaurant across eating. Dorji commented, "kitna khayega"...

The bus, the roads, the security etc. were suddenly distinctly different...way more efficient...chinese. a very able driver (more on him later)...the nepalese and tibetan guide (whom we met there...nongchuk)...were also afraid (or too worried) about the driver too. he hardly ever spoke. kept checking on the bus methodically...kept it clean too.

We reached Seth hotel...odd place it was. A Chinese family managed it. They were all on a bed at the reception...each watching some entertainment in their own device...while keeping an eye on the cctv cameras. We were in Kerung...it looked like a chinese town. I keep getting confused between Kerung and Saga...ufff.

I went shopping for a t-shirt (that's Kerung)...I was running out or not...but for some reason was annoyed of not having that dri-fit type...anyways...that day or the previous day, I sweat like crazy during the bag carrying time. Went to 3 or 4 shops before settling on what I saw in the first shop...one white longsleeve. Funnily...I was big size for the town...all t-shirts were small for me. they said i can't roam around like that in Saga...the chinese would capture me and bring me back (nothing of the sort I noticed...).

I liked the China-India canteen in this town. There was one bearded man (whom we met also on the return)...he would do full folded arms...and ask politely what we needed etc. Very seva oriented type. On the way there, I heard a telugu lady say...kailasam ikkade choopisthunnadu...she must've said to her husband. I spoke to her later...and also in Darchen (they finished going to Yama dwar that day). She said...okkare vachchara...i said...no, I'm with all these people...no, no she said...okkare vachchara...oh yes, I said yes.

That night anj took dorji's trip on water...i heard from d later...made sure he gave water to everyone. it started in that canteen...the discord on water...

The next day...mm and i walked around near seth hotel and ended up at the pangma (or so) monastery...it was very nice...i noticed him saying tashta-de...and picked it up...it was a nice pleasant morning and start. i remember talking to dorji re his behavior...outside the bus...this time round i was friendly...explaining...trying to make him understand...be friendly, watch your words...no avail i realized only later.

It was raining...landslides...one of the buses got stuck. we kept seeing other buses...isha group...it was clear to me then...that our trip was going to be closely similar to those of others...i kinda felt this the first time i read through the itinerary...we were simply following each other...the river ran into the road towards the entry to Saga...and lot of kichad...we saw how our driver wonderfully drove through the river and over onto that kichad mound to the top...fantastic!

We reached...either day 4 or 5 into Saga...somewhat during day light...lots of people...it was a huge hotel...a huge building/structure...very weird. lots of people (yatris) standing around. no rooms. we were all bunked into large rooms. but it was fun...i'm mixing up the times and days...but this night...some 5 of us bunked...i on the floor (my preference)...farting, snoring...loud, loud...lots of poop talk...it was also the night when kumr sir was walking around in his cheddis...and that chinese girl came to check on us...whether we all had blankets (no we didn't)...funny.

haan...next day...we stayed on here i think but we shifted to other rooms...it was also the time when soni had altitude sickness...a bad bout. g called sangay...or messaged him calling him shameless etc. (for the rooms).

the night...we went to tibetan place for dinner...people had yaksha (yak meat)...and the bathroom there was beautiful...open (no roof)...it was kinda snowing or raining...the light at dusk...

that next day...some briefing was there in the afternoon...it was the time when that dazed conflict happened. i was feeling somewhat sick...i don't know why. but i was also getting annoyed (that wasting-time-here feeling)...with the briefing. some arguments. the questioning face. we were to buy jerry cans for mansarovar water...i asked a yatri...what they did...he said a tibetan girl runs to the bus to sell (she didn't but there were plenty of cans in two shops)...anyways...tamr and i walked along with nong-chuk (by that time, i figured he was not efficient too)...we went here and there to many hardware stores...finally we picked up one 10kg one...tamr was insistent on a box, nongchuk insistent that we buy juice bottles and empty them...someone else something...you don't like discussions...said. anyways...that was that night. i didn't feel like eating much. was very low energy...not sure why. i simply went to sleep. d came to meet almost at that time...smiling, chatting about dinner (they went to the sichuan place) etc. it was nice.

so we were all ready to go to mansarovar...

[Tibet]: Day 2 - Shyafru besi (Rasuwa, Nepal) - border of Tibet

We started driving in the morning. Long drive. The terrain kept changing. More than one person said not to stand towards the edge...there's much community memory about landslides. The river was rough and wild. On the way, we opened various food packets...khakras I remember. I recall chatting with a few of the boys (drivers)...they were called at random to do the drive the previous night. Someone said, it was the Trishuli river...it met another river along the way.

There were two places where the road had given away to the river. One I remember very well. We carried our bags and those of others...to the other side. I guess it was the first time I noticed that Dorji (our operator) was ineffective - he seemed all too happy that we were carrying all the bags.

Wasn't it that afternoon we ate lunch at that nice Nepalese place - they had brass utensils...or was it the next day? Tasty food. And that boy with nice hair who smiled freely.

Evening we reached Peaceful Hotel at Shyafru Besi. Shyafru was spelt in various ways on the shops. It was an interesting town. I roamed around. Sat and drew in one spot...until the mosquitos came. There was a path down to a hotspring...tato pani it said. There was a kinda disco. A bakery called Full Moon. There were trucks parked...a road that winded up (to where I was). There were children...babies. A barber shop that gave cool looking cuts that shaved off lot of hair on the sides into designs.

That night I saw a pic of Lhasa on the wall...and was quite surprised. How could that be Lhasa? It was a big city...with many buildings...it looked like no other...I tried to fit in with the group and the conversations but couldn't do so easily...something about 20 eggs...I remember that...it was g who said...we'll pay for it...it was also the first time...multiple decision or indecision points emerged in the group...There were books there. The next morning Mayr banged the door...woke up in a jolt. I didn't like it.

[Tibet]: Day 1 - Kathmandu

The first time I went to Kathmandu was in 2002...with s, before the mbas began. We went here and then to kerala. Later it was during ebc in 2012 I think...we stayed in thamel. We stayed close to thamel now too...in a hotel called Shankar. I met riche in mumbai...seeing a fellow-trekker was good after a long time. Easy to spot with the shoes. funny how she knew peter-s...from schartered...and i met him in boston...how things connect. i remember his maroon sweater...it had a hole. the driver from the airport insisted it was sunday and not saturday...then we figured he just called shaniwar as sunday.

We had a longish briefing from Sangay...it was ok...I remember sitting and drinking a lot of water.

anyway...the group met...i met d...mm after a long time...kumr after wow really long...night we went to shop...then ate at a hot-pot chinese place. the lady didn't speak anything other than chinese and she accepted only yuan. this was still thamel! something she said...samo-samo...it was funny. it just was a wonderful night...unexpected, human.

Friday, August 17, 2018

[Tibet]: Day before flight

I'm on my way from work. I shouldn't be on the laptop but I'm more often than not nowadays. Too much traffic. I have a mild headache - it's like the one that comes when I eat something odd (that cutlet?) or sunstroke type or that tea-missing thing. Also that dust thing jaadhoo...on the staircase. Anyway something. Dj asked what's my state of mind. I said neutral. That's what it is...usually. I wonder if I should've dragged work to the end. But I'm all packed and such.

While I'm going to Kailash...somehow the idea of Tibet is more appealing. Could be Tintin's influence. Or Dalai Lama...they say, we aren't supposed to even bring up his name there. 

Many points were coordinated to make this trip happen. MM has been at it since many, many years. We almost went in 2016 and then it got cancelled. At that time, we were going to the source of the Brahmaputra. This one is more straightforward kinda. Day after...we'll be driving deep inside Nepal for 10.5 hours to reach the border of Tibet. And then we crossover. And drive another 1.5 hours. So quickly we'll go up and up into the Himalayas. 

I don't have much to write. Want to stay switched off. In the mountains. After a looong time. So it is.

Wednesday, April 25, 2018

[US trip April 2018]: Literary fight night SFO

Pradeep took me to this. It was raining that evening. The literary-fight thing was inside the Jewish museum. After finding...we were late...parking, rain, late start etc. and we sat right at the back.

I don't know what to think of it. Let's see what I remember. the first was that lady with lots of hair...her writing reminded me of this free flowing script like Ulysses...like katha...in the end, i went and told her...what dd told me about katha and kahani...that katha has no beginning, no end...kahani has a definite beginning and end. Her piece was titled copulation or something like that. And there was the only guy...he read poems..he was a teacher from wisconsin...he won. And that lady who brought out candles...torn jeans...switched off lights...and said poems from memory. And that other lady who enacted very well...but overtly reliant on sex...something about when her dad was having parkinson's he started sending her his dick pics...because he worked on sex magazines in his youth...something like that. it was poignant actually.

I was most disappointed with the judges...yes, they are published...two were standup comedians...but so weak in their reading and assessment...very flaky. Pradeep said SFO is like that. A lot into look and feel and the outer. I don't know. Overall, I found the writing moderately interesting or too trying to be interesting...not simple. It wasn't the story itself...it was simply the way of telling the story...a deliberate attempt to make it interesting, shocking, titillating...an over-reliance on sex...oh well.

We later stepped out. Then went to that Japanese place called Ippudo...had sake...great and nice. We were almost catching up but had to go bcos amy was stuck in the rain etc.

Monday, April 23, 2018

[US trip April 2018]: Movies I watched on flights+


  1. Human Flow - Ai WeiWei's documentary on the refugee crisis and migration...I felt a lot.
  2. Wakefield - A wicked drama when a guy doesn't return home...but ends up staying across in the out-house. Life moves on without him. He becomes a homeless guy. And then in the end returns just like that. We overestimate our importance.
  3. Loveless - Russian movie about a couple going through a bitter divorce. In the midst their 12 year old son runs away from home. He's never found.
  4. Shape of Water - I got bored with this. Mute woman love with merman with fish eyes.
  5. Ready Player One - Wanted to see it for what effect VR will have. I slept twice during it. Went with Pradeep.
  6. Gabriel and the mountain - Portuguese movie...Brazilian guy travels in Africa like a local. Climbs Kili too (recognized so much of it). His gf also visits him in between. Ends up on a mountain in Malawi...without proper gear or food...leaves his guide...ends up dying on the mountain. This mountain - https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mulanje_Massif. True story.
  7. Cloud Atlas - I was watching it for a second time. Couldn't complete it, plus slept here and there. But the whole essence of the movie...I wanted to experience again. That our actions both good and bad...cut across generations, across lifetimes. In the movie a girl (in the future) fights the wrong that's done to her species I can say (because they are produced genetically for the sole purpose of being hotel waitresses and then after a period their bodies are recycled!)...and in the way distant future when humankind is split between planets, lives in the jungles, she the same girl...is a deity...her statue up in the mountains...worshipped by all. A legend. 

Sunday, April 22, 2018

[US trip April 2018]: the Sequoias

I knew they were big trees. I've known for awhile. but i didn't research them etc. etc. I just chose to stay in Visalia, CA at an airbnb. It was a beautiful drive. I reached in the evening. Chris...my host...he was sorta big...with mustache and beard that don't touch each other...he crossed his arms while speaking or listening...in the house there was a cat and dog...the cat interacted with me the next day. he told me about General Sherman...the oldest and largest living tree...some 2,000-3,000 years old.

The nice thing about not researching is that you hear and discover things for the first time...like when Chris said..another human to me...he told me things...and he said...when you go up there...oh...whatever your religion is...buddha...doesn't matter...you'll see god there...you'll feel it.

that evening i went to visalia downtown...ate dinner at a mexican place i think...too high end for my liking. it was monday night i think so the downtown looked abandoned. next morning i recall waking up naturally at 6am...there was the marketing call...after that i went to WinCo to buy stuff...that lady there at the counter...she told me that after working for 10 years everyone becomes an owner...chris warned me to not leave food in the car because the bears can smell it...i spoke to mummy and nana from the car outside...

there was a traffic jam while getting to the sequoias. I stopped to pee at one history/local museum type place. they said on a sign to make a donation.

the first view of the sequoias was stunning. here was me and my car...and there was this huge, huge tree. i opened the windows...drove more slowly...staring at this unbelievable sight. the air...it was fresh...very fresh...and cool. i might've stuck my head out too. suddenly i also felt that sensation you feel when you come face to face with an obvious whiff of the Creator...

i drove...reaching the main park area. i bought that constellations cards thing for ahaan. possibly those cards for swaraj and ahaan. outside...i was on another call. i think after 40min or so i started driving because it was already afternoon. midway i lost the connection.

and i drove...to that point...where everything was...chris had mentioned Moro rock...so I started on that trail...but somewhere along the way I went in a loop, got lost...and ended up going towards Hanging Rock. Which was nice too. In the far distance I saw moro rock. i saw families...with babies hung onto them...walking here and there. A little while before...I settled in on a giant Sequoia...i took a video etc. I laid down my bag. sat there. so wonderful it was. magnificent. quite easily God-like. A few thousand years old. Far older than me. It just stood steady. Alive. Sturdy and yet very, very gentle. Calm. Strong. It embodied everything. Old. Aging. And yet alive and young. New. Fresh. It would let me do whatever I wanted. And yet its demeanor wouldn't let me do whatever I wanted. I felt connected. It was like me laying on Mother Sequoia's lap. It's roots go far deep into the earth.

I went inside a burnt tree. Hollow on the inside. But the outer surface existed. Graham (from Kansas or was it Kentucky...I think Kansas) whom I met later told me that when the tree catches fire...it burns off the dead...inside of the tree is dead...outside is alive. So I went inside this giant tree...following some kids who did it by crawling...and it felt cool, silent...the tree felt as though it's simply being, listening to everything around. Not reacting. Just doing its thing...of being. whatever the world may do or not do.

The fires make the Sequoias. They destroy everything around including the Sequoias themselves...and Graham said the heat let's the seeds come out...fall on the ground that's cleaned by the fire...ash...and several thousands of seeds around...and only a few grow to be plants...and from those plants...only few grow bigger...and only few from that grow even bigger...and 2,000 to 3,000 years later...may only one or two or few survive to be the Sequoias...the largest in the world...by volume. Adding ring after ring each year. Yes, it humbles you and everything that you drive yourself crazy over at work or whatever. Nature does its thing slowly, steadily...with lots of redundancy. It's taking a million chances before a tree grows up to give rise to more trees. Nature uses the same tool - fire - to make Sequoias and destroy them. And that's mystical and magical. It's seeking for a certain universal harmony...where there's nothing really that's good or bad or any label...it simply is.

The forest ranger (a lady) told me to drive to general sherman. And yet I wanted to walk. Then I met an old couple. I asked them how long would it take this trail to the giants...they said there was a lot of snow...it was already 4.30p...and it gets dark in the forest sooner...i had sports shoes...and I finally decided to drive. Good decision.

I got to spend time in the area of general sherman. named by someone in the army after his general. there were lots of people here. Stupidly I don't think I dressed appropriately...felt cold I think. I went to the tree...connected...asked if there were messages for the tribe...said, allow Nature to work on you and through you...

here's something about general sherman...

With a height of 83.8 meters (275 ft), a diameter of 7.7 m (25 ft), an estimated bole volume of 1,487 m3(52,513 cu ft), and an estimated age of 2,300–2,700 years, it is nevertheless among the tallest, widest, and longest-lived of all trees on the planet.

I had my fill...i would've definitely liked to stay on...and be inside the giant forest. still it was dusk and i had to go. i noticed i wanted good photos...to share with people...and i wondered how long will i keep running after these things...of showing off...of vanity...when will i simply be...

On the way back...I went off on another trail...to reach the parking lot. Seemed like a short cut? instead of the steps. And I was lost. Huh? I waited...I knew it'll be stupid to get lost at this time. So I closed my eyes...trusted my intuition on the direction where I should be walking. It was to the right...like north-east from where I was...and I moved in that direction. Soon I heard a car honking...thank you! And I knew I simply had to walk towards the sound. In a few min, I was back at the parking lot.

The girl at the park entrance had suggested I could drive up to King's County national park...and take another road straight down to visalia. Anyways...google maps etc. wouldn't work in these areas. I went...drove straight ahead to King's county...no cars were around. Everyone must've gone home. The parks itself are open through the night. They give you a 7-day pass. You can even camp there. I saw a beautiful sunset there. It was very very nice. I kept listening to songs on my itunes...i remember charlie puth :) it's linked to Ahaan's musical at school for me...

The way down was windy...and with darkness...difficult. I don't like driving fast and was holding up a car or two behind. I was also tired. Quite tired I think. Lack of sleep generally and the day. Finally after may be two hours or so reached Visalia. Was happy to reach. Chris had even checked with me via email. I went straight to a chinese restaurant...had a beer...so satisfying. Took the food togo. She didn't give me rice. Didn't matter. Came back. Happily ate...something mixed veg? broccoli? Ya, I ate a very tasty broccoli thing in brooklyn on bed-sty the night I reached there.

I slept well. Late. And left the ancients, the giants the next morning. Towards Pradeep's place in SFO.

[US trip april 2018]: people and what they said...

let's see...i met so many people...business, professional, family, friends, strangers...
  • the english literature phd airbnb person...this is the most intuitive experience i've had since my childhood
  • the michigan student who told me about the german town of westphalia of less than thousand people...I want to go back someday and work there
  • sctt...you have to tell me specifically why you say we are siloed...who is telling you that we are
  • ajy...yaar tu mera ek bada doubt toh clear hi kar diya (at that coffee shop)...tu kahin na kahin kheenchke leke hi jata hai
  • pal...why don't you just come in and we'll chat..(ajy and i cold-walked into wdi...)
  • wndy...come let me hug you (end of mtg)
  • smit...hey man...my cousin she's gone all vegan and got those curved jaws...that's what i want
  • cow business plan competitors...indian breeds don't give much milk
  • gaytri...ck made time for everything...for everyone (during the b-plan competitions)
  • andri...i knew already you'd say that
  • the girl from burkina faso who introduced me to cortado coffee...oh, you know where burkina faso is?
  • maxine who took us on a cycle trip in harlem...if you cut your hand and my hand...the blood is the same color (in jacob's restaurant)
  • the armenian sculptor who keeps building his rock sculptures (sisyphus rocks) even after people keep pushing them down...keep doing (said without actually saying)
  • Raymond @NYSS...you are welcome to go back there...I modeled in the morning myself
  • visl...I'd choose back massage over sex anyday (bed-sty, brooklyn)
  • visl...everyone wants to change the world but themselves
  • shrl...I want to do this for you...right now (and she sent out intro emails)
  • mishel...that's it? you don't have any brochures...it's all you...great (in response to me saying...why do you need anything else when you have me in front of you)
  • man in gym...sir, so do you squeeze and push forward while lifting those? (kettle bells)
  • the deer...stared and stared (in the tenafly forest, we were really close)
  • entrepreneur with achalasia...this conversation was disturbing but very useful to me
  • prasdm...medicineman...you can buy mushrooms there...they say sometimes cures cancer
  • cc...big...big (in flushing)
  • girl near MTA vending machine...Fuck you, I am trying to earn a living (in response to me saying, this is not the way...she tried to force-help find the right bus and ask money for it)
  • jn...am sorry I've not been myself since my dog died...
  • swraj...I see myself as a jazz player (in the car on way to chitti's in dc)
  • prash...did he say purugulu? (joking after thru telling us to eat punugulu in dc...purugulu means bugs like cockroaches...punugulu means bondas type)
  • green person after accalasia...even white people do...see
  • carid...I don't want to see them...I'm too angry
  • Mila...you look like you need some fixing up here (and she brewed coffee, heated pizza that brought back life...it was afternoon, i was coming after carid, exhausted)
  • Lady in cafeteria...oh on his birthday they send him such big cakes...he's a great and kind man...he hired me too (re dr isw...she's mom-in-law of myra)
  • ykti...i was nervous...would you think of me as less cool now?
  • ykti...you are very persistent...that's what s-hil said...(and she booked her tickets to slc an hour after I left)
  • prshanth...you'll see gurudwaras on the way there...
  • man from visalia...whatever religion you practice...buddha...whatever...it doesn't matter...you'll see god amongst those great trees
  • graham the bearded guy from kansas at sequoias...i'll remember that place...blanket...chadar in hindi...the fire makes the sequoias and also destroys them
  • forest ranger lady...drive to general sherman...it's already late...plus there's snow on the trail
  • prbhu...you can know potassium levels by big data analysis of EKG readings
  • shankr...macha you still sound the same..(i was facing the door in pd's office reception area)
  • mnish...the singular factor why people sign up is the quickest time you get back when they inquire or when they need
  • ami...tell me all about it...what went wrong that day (on the dining table)
  • gndu...machine learning is difficult
  • vjay...google paid half million to that phd student for machine learning
  • princ...hemorrhoid banding...(in that wine place in palo alto)
  • sorb's mom...when children are saying these sandals look good, it must be
  • hena's dad...your office is in malad? and your son...how's he? your wife where's she working...
  • samr...i'm in a happy place right now (while sharing ice-cream from that old shop in burlingame)
  • homeless man...no, I can walk...my parents died, then my wife died...I have liver cancer (outside mexican restaurant in SLC downtown...head totally bent, all his clothes and possessions behind, fingers thick...cigarette stubs all around)
  • 74 year old uber driver...i drive to meet new people instead of staying home alone
  • raul the ceo...i'm doing this 8-16 hour diet for last 3 weeks to control diabetes
  • cowboy m who's lived off the grid for 10 years and narrated his out-of-body experience...that happened on the day hale bob comet went past the earth...there was so much of love there...(later)...i've been alone all this while...all of you...it's been glad...
  • terri...it's so great to see you enjoy us and all that we do...and allowing us to enjoy you
  • 89 year old hal...you are like my son
  • hal...lemme tell you a racist joke
  • hal...she's my lady friend...she was an air hostess when she was young (she's 85 now, there was a black and white pic of her in front of the plane)
  • hal...you let him pet you Madison (madison is a cat...much like a fearful child...she kept running away...she's never been outside the house)
  • hal...never refuse nuts when someone offers you (and he ate some)
  • hal who supports gun ownership...guns don't kill people...people do
  • pal...jesus fucking christ...dad...
  • diane...they asked us to leave after 40 years...it wasn't fair...we just want to see patients...don't need a salary...and we want to take care of our two wonderful employees
  • cliff...you should've seen a lot of game there at this time of the year...
  • isha...i'll count to 19 this time (while playing hide and seek)
  • s-hil...you...you are a good boy (while driving to airport)
  • man next to me on plane...you really went to idaho?....we are on a choir trip to ny
  • chck...they are these mba types who are smart and think they know everything
  • musical note person...i'm not reading that shit (alex haley's roots)
  • phil...i never stay in a job this long...it'll be 5 years...i don't know what i want...i just want challenges
  • chtra...hmmm...yes you follow up...it's all healing isn't it
  • pd...anna it filled my heart when you both spoke so much that day
  • nanimama...plus (means in addition to bad lifestyle contributing to problematic health)...the babies are now subjected to a new babysitter...the phone
  • joke I heard and enjoyed in idaho...a hunter is stopped by the forest ranger. He has a bag of dead ducks. The officer pulls out the first one, sticks his finger in the duck's ass, smells and says - this is from Nevada, do you have the shooting license? Hunter says yes. Then he repeats, says - this is from Utah, do you have the license? Hunter says yes. Then Texas follows. Finally, the ranger asks him, where the hell are you from anyways? So the hunter unbuckles his belt, pulls his pants down and says, you are the smart ass, you tell me where I'm from...
there are lots more...will update as and when i remember...

Sunday, April 15, 2018

[US trip April 2018]: Idaho

What a trip it's been! I'm sitting on the couch in Hal's living room. Paul's on the side...preparing for his dmv test tom. watching american idol...flipping through channels.

the trip's been great education for me...in more ways than one. particularly about deep, middle america. nothing can teach you more than living, speaking, breaking bread with others. it's only in doing so that we can empathize or learn to feel for the other. nagsh said 'poor guy' to cowboy...because he sees only the part of him that lives alone in the mountains...that's where we don't get it. people outside don't get what it means to live in wilderness. and why.

(now we've switched to the Idaho programs...that hal's recorded...public tv ones...documentaries...we saw the origins of Idaho's rivers the other day).

let's see...let me start from the beginning.

i drove from sahil's...after we dropped off yukti...ate at a mexican restaurant. getting off from salt lake city...the land opened up...vast lands...clouds..mountains...and the wind...heavy, heavy wind that the car wouldn't drive fast...i wondered if the rental car was old or something...but later realized it's the wind...on the way to burley, idaho.

paul's dad hal - harold was welcoming. he has a cat named madison. she's very shy...scared to come close...he said today she's never been outside the house. she's come now and is sitting next to him on the hand of the sofa...where hal sits. i've tried make friends with her. but she's often scared. he asked me to feed her yday and today...which i did. she let me touch her...but withdraws...something.

hal he's born in 1929. he's totally amazing. i was actually surprised at the many things he does for his age. it's very unlike seniors in india or other countries. he drove over 100miles today. he's been driving everywhere. lives by himself. supports his daughter and son unequivocally when they need them. moved from california. fullerton. worked in the navy...wears a hat that says "CAN DO!" given by the navy...was saying today that he met his wife (she passed away 8 years ago)...when he came back from the navy...there's a black and white pic in front of me of their wedding...his wife was 16 years old...he looks very handsome like a movie actor. and next to that photo is her at age 50...she looks very young in it...paul said it has her ashes. hal also showed me pic of his lady friend from california...in her youth she was an air hostess...there's a pic of hers in front of those older planes. i also saw her birthday pic at 85...nice.

after coming back today after the trip...he showed me many things in the house...paintings, artifacts...old photos...lamps...flutes that he makes and won prizes at the county fair of cassia county where burley is. he's moved here 3 years ago. said retired then and moved here where terri is.

i admire him totally...that's what i said during the drumming circle last night...around the fire...i adore you i said...and i thanked for being so loving and open...he's been. i saw his pics in 60s...looks like narasimh...hmmm...he goes to church...doesn't like hearing swear words in movies...says have to go to confession...strongly catholic...he made us texas french toast yday. and pancakes later. he added chocolate chips to the pancake (and one packet of oatmeal) to surprise paul (he loved it)...

i learnt about trailers...how it offers mobility...to move around...some cost $200k. attach to pickup trucks...it's a different life...to always be in the outdoors...

terri's cabin was amazing...it was actually very luxurious. the bath...was walking distance...water from nearby hotsprings has been directed here. i enjoyed bath twice...in that hot springs tub. middle of the night when i got up to pee i saw the stars. so many stars. thot of ladakh, dx, mountains, cold, what's that slippers called...that...fully equipped cabin.

property...it's a word that's often used here...my property...when that happens people respect that.

Sawtooth national forest...cowboy took us here yday...wow it was wild. i've never met a real cowboy. and i didn't know what to expect. paul and hal always referred to him as cowboy. he's lived in the wilderness for 10 years. has high BP...seems recent. was watching salt/ sodium intake when we ate outside. he wore jeans...i was saw him at B&B repair at Oakley town...closeby. he was repairing jeeps along with Bob (Robert)...who's both Oakley town's mayor and repairman. that was interesting. he took us that day to city of rocks along with terri. i enjoyed it very much. and they were both surprised and enjoyed seeing me enjoy so much. i touched everything. climbed. went along.

next day was even more interesting. in a red 4x4 we went...terri drove first. it was fun to see two-two cowboy hats in the front seats. we kept going going. looking for mines i think. cowboy had been there years ago...he's been there 10 years. and he couldn't exactly find it. but we were on an adventure. we went up and behind rocks, mountains, grasslands...sage grass smell all around. he took out a knife when we needed to dig out peanut butter. he never spoke much. has a white mustache and beard. 64 years or so. bluish-grey eyes (paul, terri, hal...all seemed to have similar eyes...even amy i think). we got lost...deep in the mountains...and finally he found the way back...we went out from the other side of the mountain we were at...almost close to the utah border 20 miles...the other side would take us to nevada...these are dirt roads interior deep....we were many miles away from the cabin. he was tired by the time we reached.

he taught me how to shoot. by giving me his real pistol. i don't know what exactly it was...perhaps .22 caliber. there was a branch in the water...he said aim at that. and i did. paul asked him if i could etc. by then i was wearing a cowboy hat myself...we bought it at cal ranch the previous day...it's hanging on the hat hanger now.

we all gathered at night...drumming circle...cowboy kept saying the spirits will come out tonight. the rattle was made of seeds. earlier he told us a story. the time when hale-bop comet flew by...see below...

Hale-Bopp was an unusually bright comet that swung near Earth in the late 1990s, reaching its closest approach to the planet in 1997. It was most spectacular in theNorthern Hemisphere and visible to the naked eye for about 18 months.

that night he had a near-death experience. he said his spirit soared to the roof and saw everything that was happening around. there was a spirit horse that he rode on holding its mane...it took him to a native indian chief who asked him why he came...a few min before, he showed us a stone a special stone...that represented all directions from native Indian culture...north, south, east, west...and that day...he could soar see people...it was that day...someone gave him that stone...he had a choice whether to go on...or return...he said almost like anita moorjani...bcos the other side felt so happy...he was on his spirit horse...he looked into my eyes as he narrated. we were in his trailer. outside where all kinds of vehicles. ATV...snow boats etc. when we parted today...he said come back.

the climb this morning...i got up before paul and hal...after eating a banana...walked around...the mountain was calling me...it's steep...there are rocks on top. wanted to reach there. i went the other way first...but there was a fence...then i came back...and simply started climbing...i must say it was comfortable...i was more scared of snakes...for whatever reason...i later found out snakes won't come out in this season...they usually like sitting on rocks...rattlers...i went up and up and up...reached a boulder...there i stacked the stones...paul said it's called carin...then i went further...there was a bush....green...behind that...some more on top....and i reached the rocks...the base...i made another stack...offered my prayers...lied down with stomach...i was feeling the earth...fully...did ho'oponopono...pachamama...i could've gone higher...the mountain could've continued...but i didn't want to worry paul and hal...they would've got up...i returned...climbed down quickly...saw paul...then he came out again...and then hal too...shouted out to them...later they kept talking about it with others..."he wasn't even winded"

it was cliff (father of the mayor) who said...there's a lot of game at this time of the year...aren't people in this town nice and friendly?

hal taught his kids a call sign...goes like ooouppp...families...memories...as children...several times paul and terri were talking about...do you remember that time when...

("shyanne? what kind of a name is that?"...an aspiring cyclist on idaho public tv...she's cycling with her 72 year old grandma)

mount borah is the highest point...

minitonka - falling water.

snake river...longest...1400 miles...it goes nearby...

Monday, March 19, 2018

[US trip April 2018]: Brooklyn and Harlem

I’m sitting in a train from Flushing to Manhattan. Qiu. CC. Red bun. Pleasant evening.

This past weekend I hung out w Vishal in the Bed-Sty area of Brooklyn. The couple I met in Ahmedabad told me about Bedford Stuyvesant. It’s some 150k population. 70% African American. I felt the Airbnb place was over priced. But it was nice. Weekend. I flew in after the abog meeting at Michigan. So it was one different thing after another. 

The big highlight was the cycle tour with Maxine. I learnt a lot. Had surprised Vishal about it. Our knowledge of people is so distilled down. I never knew about Marcus Garvey. Someone on whose shoulders Martin Luther King would’ve stood. We stood in front of the house of the black poet Hughes. She read out this poem of his - https://www.poetryfoundation.org/poems/47558/i-too. There was a dried up vine. She said he grew it so people can recognize. Maxine had distinct curly hair. We talked a lot about it. V asked if it curled up naturally that way. This was in the middle of one large street in Harlem. We took our cycles right on the divider. In front of Harlem hospital. Also saw Shomberg center which apparently Carnegie funded. In that center are the ashes of Huges I think. And every month first Friday they dance around it etc. she also talked about CJ Walker a lady who made a big business out of hair care products. And we went to the house of one guy who died in a duel. His mom was a mulatto she said. But he looked all white. The guy who killed him Burr? married someone who took him for a ride for his money. And she herself was taken for a ride by someone else after Burr’s death. Oh well. 

We went to Jacobs which seemed like authentic soul food which Vishal heard first as tofu. Accents. Maxine’s husband X was from Canada. He was a quiet presence throughout. So was EttiN. He was shadowing Maxine. He told me about why Air Jordan’s people are crazy about and also Canadian Goose jackets?

Towards the end of the ride we went near the Hudson River near GW bridge. There someone had balanced these stones. One over the other. It’s been called Sisyphus stones. https://www.nytimes.com/2017/09/14/nyregion/a-mystery-solved-why-the-sisyphus-stones-rise-and-tumble.html. It was v peaceful place. The stones seem to have a life. The most interesting thing. The artist keeps making them everyday or every other day. People keep toppling them. He keeps making. He quotes Rumi. 

She told us about a club called Shrine. We went to it that night. It was ok. A band played well. Crowd was very mixed. I got tired of beer I guess means I don’t take to it very well now. Rather be strong and fit. 

We rode a long long bus ride from Harlem to Village. When we reached lower east side we walked up to NY Studio School. At the reception was Raymond. Once he knew I was an alumni he was so warm and welcoming. He himself had modelled that morning he said. He let me go in. My heart something happened when I went to the studio that Bruce taught and we learnt. He’s since left NYSS. I left notes for him and Kathryn. Touching the stool, the clay, the center thing which rotates oh my God. I belong there.  It felt so home. Home. Hmmm...

I didn’t take so much Bed-Sty. It does have a run down feel to it. Despite the cafe’s. Perhaps it’s the cold and the winter that many people weren’t outside. But Harlem was way more alive. In Bed-Sty we went to cafe called Saraghina or something like that. At the counter was someone from Burkina Fsso. She was surprised that I knew of the country. She made very good coffee. And this would become Vishal’s fav place. But we didn’t return. I made the wrong call of walking to Williamsburg the next morning. It was too cold. My toes felt like they’d fall out. We both lost it by the time we reached a Jewish bagel shop. The bagels were very tasty. Then all of a sudden it was late and time to checkout etc. 

It was beautiful. Many things about the weekend. Harlem seems home too. It’s funny we don’t know he world only until we don’t know it. All these solos we made. Maxine said you cut my hand and your hand it’s the same blood - she said animatedly. It’s more than blood actually. Our entire DNA. Is not even ours. 90% is the kicrobiome. It’s also what forms from the environments we move around in. Srik said after seeing a pic nee pani bagundi you mix with everybody. I don’t know of any other way. It’s simply one. When you have one deep immersion you simply belong to a people. So may be we simply let people experience people. What’s the other way? How can you not love the other? All we need is just one human experience with each other. 

Ai Weiwei’s documentary human flow had a big influence inside. Saw it on the plane. Later now. 

Sunday, February 11, 2018

Sabarmati Ashram

I must've wanted to go there for a long time. I've Gandhi movie many times. Showed it to ahaan too. He too enjoyed it.

So it seemed very familiar when I went there. I didn't plan to go. I was going by auto from the airport to Khadia where I was staying (at Heritage House - a 200 year old house run by a gujarati family). Anyway, on the way I saw a sign that said 'Gandhi Ashram'. It had to be Sabarmati Ashram.

I went in the evening. Before sunset. Felt very happy at the red entrance. Gandhi places and ashrams (I feel this way about Aurobindo Ashram too) are so vague and nice. Vague because everything is there and in its own pace. But everything seems to work. The work is never perfect and that's the point. Like that Japanese work Wabi Sabi aesthetics - a world view that everything is perfect as imperfection. When the leaves fall from the tree, they just fall here and there all around...not in perfect symmetry. but just as they should. That's the way I feel about Sabarmati Ashram. For some reason, I can't call it Gandhi Ashram but Sabarmati ashram.

I went to the museum first - aware that I can spend lot of time and not have enough time to go to the huts/homes or the main area. The thing that I figured is that they too struggled for funds...Gandhi struggled too...despite being Gandhi...he made practical choices of basing himself in Amdavad for the sake of getting funding from wealthy merchants. Seems almost like a startup to me.

I took most to Vinoba Bhave's hut. He lived there. Then Mira behn did. Her name was Madeleine Slade. I read somewhere Gandhi thought it not appropriate to be her guru but a fellow seeker. Somewhere I read what he shared re the 11 vows. He wrote to her...

o hear suggestive stories with the ears, to see suggestive sights with the eyes, to taste stimulating food with the tongue, to touch exciting things with the hands, and at the same time to expect to control the only remaining organ, is like putting one's hands in the fire and expecting to escape being hurt. Bapu's letters to Mira. P.257.

Gandhiji was obsessed about it. His views of ashram were strongly centered on celibacy. It's one of the 11 vows. For Vinoba Bhave, I read this...

In 1940 he was chosen by Gandhi to be the first Individual Satyagrahi (an Individual standing up for Truth instead of a collective action) against the British rule. It is said that Gandhi envied and respected Bhave's celibacy, a vow he made in his adolescence, in fitting with his belief in the Brahmacharya principle.

In his autobiography, I think steadily from age 35 he kept trying to follow. But struggled with it. Well into old age because he kept thinking about it. It occupied his mind, his writings...it wasn't that he was free from it.

And I guess that's the point of it all. He progressed, moved forward despite it all. Both move forward together. The yin and the yang. And that's life.

Where he stayed. Hridaya Kunj. There's his room. I could generally feel strong energy everywhere in this place. The ashram itself. There was his room and next to it was a smaller Kasturba's room. I stared from her window, wondering what she must've seen outside. Like her. He's very vocal about saying she gave her life to his views, his principles etc. I wonder how she might've been in the present times.

I saw his desk, 3 monkeys in white, and sitting thing. It was generally nice.

I saw a man outside when I wanted to take a photo for the photo dungeon that I never usually open. This man had a smaller left hand than the right. Under his chankas he kept newspapers. He had a ponytail - white, grey hair. A goatee. Wore jeans and a shirt and some sleeveless sweater kinda thing. Our eyes met. But I didn't smile, neither did he. We went our separate ways. He's there in that photo I had someone take of me.

There's a small garden. Hridaya kunj, the ashram, the Sabarmati seemed everything that I might simply be with. I kept seeing Vinoba Bhave's hut - it's very small. There's really not much one needs. One of the vows - of not stealing - is also interpreted as not having anything more than what one absolutely needs.

I saw one lady dressed in ghagra type dress. Pink something over head. Inside her cover, she was speaking with a headset on the phone. For a very, very long time - like my entire stroll.

Near the prayer area, I sat outside for sometime. There was a group sitting and meditating. A man with a big belly in a banian also sat meditating for sometime under a tree. Then he was checking his phone. I sent pics via Whatsapp from there. Why was that imp I don't know...I don't know...

I went back to the museum by the time it was time to leave. A policeman loudly said chalo, chalo...indicating that time's up.

That's where the Dandi march started from. Close by there's a bridge - and a sign that says so.

I walked for a long time on ashram road. First I thought I'll eat at Toran dining hall. Then I abruptly decided to go to House of MG by auto. Had a nice gujarati thali. Ate little bit but still I liked the idea of eating there. It's made in 1924. The house. Agashiye is the name of the restaurant. Across was a beautifully lit mosque. Lal Darwaja is the area. Apparently Gandhiji stayed there in 1917 when he returned from South Africa. The auto driver told me Japaan ka prime minister ate there 2 months back.

Well it was a fun, drifting evening...